I.

i cant sleep.
i notice every time a guy touches me.
im so scared. all the time.
i feel vulnerable.
i feel dirty. i want new skin.
i have flash backs all the time. every night.
im scared of the dark.
i have nightmares.
i have no control. over my self or what happens to me.
some times i feel so depressed i dont know what to do with myself.
im so lonely.
and i hate myself for not being fixed yet.
but i still have no idea how to do that.
i dont want anyone new in my life because i wont be able to trust them.

i want to be looked after. every second of every day. by the people who should of done that. not the people who did. i am not there responsibility. i am the friends that have disappointed me responsibility.

i want someone to fix me. and make me ok again.

i want him to be punished, and never show his face again. because my punishment is a life sentence. and his is nothing.

i think people judge me, or think im exaggerating or lieing.

i dont have faith in anyone.

he has taken me. my happiness
and everything i ever trusted in and the things that meant most to me.

A.