Av

I walked from Fous to the station with Av.

I opened up to him. because I was totally lost.
He was the first person to suggest that it was assault.
and he was supportive then
and there which was what I needed.

he felt bad because he didn't know and he left me crying because he thought it was over C.
He suggested I should go to the police. I didn't want to. because I knew what that would do to Will. And his mum.

He wanted to talk to will. help him get help. not let him feel isolated.

over the next few weeks he kept telling me what i should be doing nad how i should be feeling. from something he had read on the recovery or rape victims. he thought it would be similar.

what he doesn't know is that after I got on the train. I cried all the way home. on the train. openly. tears flowing. people staring.
it didn't matter. nothing mattered.

A.