Background

ive never really got on with my family, and after my grandma died none of us were able to support each other through our pain. And we all dealt with it differently. E forced herself to forget everything, my mum felt as if she suffered the worst pain, worst than all of us. And its not for me to say who felt the worst of suffered the most. but none of us supported the other. my dad .. I don't know was just there in the background. And me, I tried to not give up and convinced myself that it hadn't happened. because of that it took along time for me to come to terms with anything. and by that time it was difficult to be a family.
Because of this I was very dependent of my friends. Through the majority of secondary school there had been the 7 of us. My girls and My boys.
Me, Chrissie, Hannah, Rosie, Josh, Will and Marv.

when we started 6th form the group not so much split up, but gradually we all drifted away. I always saw myself as the bridge of the group and the one that everyone leaned on when they needed to and sometimes the peace keeper.
So when others drifted I remained. I still talked to them all. kept in touch and kept an eye on them. I became very close with Hannah and Will. It was great and I loved it. I think it would be fair to say that we were the 3 in the group who had the biggest home issues. It meant that we could understand each other.

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