confrontation

i took myself off to the kitchen. and got tea with some others.
faking my smile.

all the time my head was going
what do I do?
what did he do when I was asleep?
what could he of done at Marks when I was asleep?
How could he do this too me?
Why?
How dare he.

At that point he walked into the kitchen. i felt sick again.
him there. that close to me. i took myself away to the living room. where that bastered had the nerve to follow me.
How dare he

whats the matter??
i felt sick to my stomach. Disgusted.
in a sort of calm rage with a mixture of terror and pure white rage I explained without looking at him, that I had been awake when Jasmin had gone home and Alaine and Daphne had left. His response
"am in trouble?"
at that point I got up and walked out.
my last words to him were
your in trouble.
I cant even look at you.

to this day i don't know how i coped at that time.
but i show myself that i can get through anything. and do anything i have to.

He quickly left.

A.