Hannah

Hannah was the other part of our group. Me, him and her.

I was terrified to tell her because I was sure she wouldn't believe me. It was difficult for me to accept. let alone someone who had known him since primary. and it hadn't happened to.

Alaine had texted her asking her to please believe me because its the truth.
and
she listened.
and she told me what she "would" of done. and yeh
she supported me.
but i don't think she still believes or accepts it 100%. still.

she took me out in her car. and i explained what i could. but i still feel like she took it too well to believe it as the truth.
we went back to mine and i gave her everything that will had given or lent to me.
i didn't want it.
now I wish I had kept it and smashed it. i think i deserved that.

she took it back to him and talked to him.
and
she told me all about how he was so sorry and cut up.
there is No excuse for what he did.
none.
nothing even comes close.
to be honest im pretty sure that she only believed me and still sees me because he admitted to it.
if he had denied it, i dont think she would of come through for me.

and she still sees him
still talks to him .
goes round his house.
she dropped hints about how she wished we were still friends
asked me if i had talked to him recently
she acted like we had had an argument. or like it was both our faults equally.

each time she asked. it cut me. it really hurt.
because if you can ask that
and do that
then you have no
no understanding of my pain.

i eventually told her things were never going to change between me and him and that I never wanted to hear about him again.

another friend that I needed more than ever.
was too busy making sure he didn't feel isolated.
A.