Rosie

i told Rosie online over msn

and because she has had a pretty easy life with a good home and is bright and pretty.

she didnt understand.

i think her response was "thats twisted".


she has been there for me.
not me and him
no him
but
me
and she is the only one out of my 7 who has been
and i really needed her
i still do.
because shes the only one i have left.
out of the ones i loved and trusted so much.

Daphne
im not sure how much she got, like how much she understood my pain. but she made it clear that she was and would always be there. which is what i needed.
and it really
really means a lot.

and its so easy to smile and laugh around her .
but im not sure if my heart will ever smile again.


A.