Chrissie

this was the worst.

Hannah had told Chrissie everything on the day of.

she didn't contact me.
the next time she saw me was Rosie's birthday meal.
where she had a go at me for not contacting her.
then took me off to the loos with Hannah.

and told me
that I was lucky it had been will. because thats better than some stranger.
and that i was closer with him that they were so it was alright.
and that he was lonely.
and that I shouldn't of told all the people that I did
because if it got out then people wouldn't understand him.
Hannah agreed with her.


I wanted to cry. my friends. they let me down.
if they believed that. then they do not understand my pain.
I told her that I needed her

she didn't bother contacting me again.

A.